Books, Books, Books…

Do you like to read? If so, what do you like to read? I used to read all the time. However, until recently I haven’t been able to focus on reading anything. In the last month I have read nine books. Once I start reading I am addicted. I’m an urban fantasy lover. I love anything  about demons, witches vampires, and so on. The more action and magick the better. I’m doing the Goodreads challenge this year. I set my goal to 40 books, kind of low but that was in case  I hit a stand still like I have been for the last two years. 

Currently I am reading the first three books of SM Reine’s  Descent series. I had just finished the first three books of another series of hers and loved it. She is quickly becoming one of my favorite authors. I would love to have some recommendations from you guys. If you would like me to suggest any to recommendations  to you just let me know.

*Note* I am sorry about the delayed post we have been laying down new floors in our home the last couple of days. What can I say? Life just happens sometimes. Hope you  all have a great week.

My PCOS Story

Early in our marriage, my husband and I found out that due to my PCOS (polycystic ovarian syndrom) that we would probably never have children. The way we found out was horrible. I had a positive pregnancy test. We went to the doctor, they had given me an exam and done blood work. Everything looked good, gave me a due date and set me up for an ultrasound. When we went in for the exam they could not find a baby. After that they started testing  me and diagnosed me with PCOS. The same week I had the positive pregnancy test so did my cousin and my best friend at the time. Oddly enough both of their names were Rachel. Anyways, when they had their babies I hit a major low. My husband, being the sweetheart that he can be, got me a puppy. A cocker spaniel named Buttercup. Since then we have always had our fur-babies. Now we have three. Dirty Boy, is a 13 year old cocker spaniel. He was Buttercup’s  puppy (Buttercup died two years ago last September). Next is Holly Sue. She is a seven year old weimer. She is also a daddy’s girl. Finally, there is Milo Mutley, who is a half-coonhound and half-baked and all stubborn. He is just over a year old. Of course, the boys are all mama boys. So while we may not have kids, we are still a big happy family with our fur-babies.

Addiction

This post is not about alcohol or drug addiction. This is about my personal addiction…food. The dieting so far has been extremely hard for me. It doesn’t help that my sugar is out of whack. However, food has always been my addiction. It hasn’t gotten any better since then.

I think about food all the time and it has really gotten bad since I quit smoking. It’s like giving up one addiction enhanced the other one. I eat my emotions, boredom, I have even sneak snacks past my husband while he was cooking supper to eat; then I would pig out on what he had cooked, as well.

So I have been looking into different programs for people who have food addiction. Hopefully I will find one for me that will help, because if I don’t get control soon my diabetes and food will kill me.

Struggling to Diet…

Well so far so good this new year. I have had a few slip ups. Fast Food is easy to give up, because we are always broke. However, my biggest mess ups are at night time. During the day I have plenty of stuff to keep me busy but at night I bored easily and due to insomnia I am up at all hours of the night. During the day I have my house to clean, dogs to play with, working on my writing. However, night time is down time and  television time.

The fourth was my worst day of this first week. I love my parents but there is something you should know about them. When you go somewhere with them you don’t know where you will end up, but you will be sure to have plenty to eat. On the fourth, I went shopping with them in Evansville, IN.

My husband and I try to be very frugal due to limited funds, so eating out is always a treat for us. So I kind of over did it…okay I really over did it. In my defense I felt guilty almost immediately and have paid several days for it over my sugar levels being elevated. So now I am trying to get back on track. That’s why I believe your resolutions is something you try to do all year, not to just give up on the first day or week. So I am still confident that I will reach my goals. On December 31st I will know if I am successful or not, and not a moment before then.

On a positive note, I have started forming a diet plan. My husband has been dieting for almost a year now and is very close to a hundred pounds lost. I am so proud of him. He is so much more energetic and happier. Several years ago I lost 150 pounds. I was getting close to 400 lbs and I lost down to 270. Then I got fired from my job due to cut backs and got really depressed and now I am trying to lose the weight I put on from all of that. However, I remember how good I felt when I lost that weight and I am so happy for him to experience that and I hope to feel that way again as well.

So I am forming my diet plan on the way he has done his. I have started giving up on sodas, juice and dairy (the dairy is tied to my PCOS so I am doing that over hormones and not weight loss). I am also trying to make healthier choices and cutting back on portion sizes. Once I get settled on that I will focus on calorie intake, look into dieting with PCOS, and more exercise. Due to health issues I have to wait to see my doctor on what she suggests I do for exercise.

I could always use diet tips so please feel free to comment. Hope you are enjoying the blogs so far. Hope the week ahead brings you luck and happiness.

Resolutions for my Revolution (Introduction)

Here is a brand new year and a brand new me!

I tend to look at resolutions as goals for the next year as a whole. Most people I know expect you to keep them from day one. That is not how I see it. I believe you take these resolutions on at your own pace. Just as long as you get to them by December 31st.

I am a thirty-eight year old housewife. I want to change my life before I hit forty. I am tired of looking back on my life as a failure. So here are some things I want to change in the upcoming year and why:

  1. Lose weight: I am so embarrassed that I have gained so much weight since I quit smoking two years ago. I am currently at 320 pounds. I have almost gained the entire amount I had lost five years ago.
  2. Get my diabetes under control: Right now the doctors are beginning to discuss putting an insulin pump in me because my body is resistant to the insulin, but lets face it I need to watch what I eat and start exercising to bring the levels down. My goal is to make sure I don’t get that pump put in!
  3. Stop being lazy: I feel good mentally when I am active and I can handle the pain. I need to set a time for exercise and a time to relax.
  4. Focus on my writing: I have poems and articles published, but I want to edit my current novel and send it off. Plus finish the one I have started.
  5. Blog more: My goals for this blog is one post a week, maybe two if I have the time. They will always be uploaded by Sunday afternoons.
  6. Clean my house and get it organized: I am so fed up living in chaos. I have already started this task because we have to put new floors down in our laundry room and I am embarrassed for my parents (who are putting the floors down) to see it.
  7. Spend more quality time with those I love.
  8. Be less judgmental on myself. Lose the negative self-talk.
  9. Make at least one new friend: (This will be hard for me, because I am not very sociable)
  10. Last but not least: Focus on quit using snus, I quit smoking two years ago but have been semi dependent on Camel snus. I only have one about every other day so hopefully it will be easier than quitting smoking.

These are my resolutions. Follow my upcoming posts, hit me up on Facebook and Twitter. I will be discussing the ups and downs on my journey through 2017. Happy New Year!